Sometimes you don't really know that it hurts, deep down.

Well, it's been half a week now since I've seen her.
Does she really know, that every moment spent without her,
is like living through the same days over and over?
I don't know.
I don't know why am I feeling this down and complicated anyway.
But one thing's for sure,
I miss her so.
The next time I put my arms around her,
I'll never let go, never.
Separations last awhile, but this is too much.
We had ups and downs and well,
I tolerated most of your words.
I knew you, what you do, what you will do.
And I just hate it, baby.
Not you, the people around you.
They treat you like,
like careless fools.
They act like brainless idiots.
They think like heartless bastards.
Some part of me just wants to scream out loud,
never letting anyone,
but your close friends, family, to touch you, NO ONE.
Yes, I hate those stupified playboys who think love is just a plaything.
Well, fuck them.
I don't really care as long as they don't get into you.
Okay okay, Imma chill now.
:]

Till the day we'll meet again.
I miss you.

Sigh

Hmm. It's 12pm. And its a HOT HOT HOT day. Gahh. :\ I hate hot days. And I wonder how she's doing back at Kedah. I miss her and I'm going to for the next couple of days. Gosh. I really do. It's funny how we met could come up to this. All she said was "Hey, why are you always so quiet?" then it all sparked up and it began from then on. The first time singing to her and actually luring all my heart and soul into those songs were amazing. I loved it.

And from that day onwards, I slowly fell for her, secretly. And I asked myself what has she done to make me lovestruck. I never found the answer. Cause it was meant to be kept secret, even if there was no answer at all. She was different. She wasn't like any other girl. Probably because she's from a different state but that's not the point. She was hyper. She was cuhrazyyyy! :D She was sweet, adorable, cute. She was caring. She was funny. She was fun. She was understandable. She was lovable. She was lucky. She was beautiful. She was pretty, humble and honest. She was everything that I ever wanted. But still it persists, the question left unanswered. And I will not rush things through. I'll give her time. All the time in the world for her to tell me the honest answer. I won't rush. I promised to myself that I'd let everything be the way it should be, and time will tell everything. I will make it clear that I will wait forever, never finding another, just to hear those three words from her. I will.

I miss you.

Will You Stay Awake For Me?

Will you stay awake for me as I did for you?

With every appearance by you, blinding my eyes,
I can hardly remember the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed, one more's fine.

I'm trying real hard not to shake. I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won. You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you. Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breath, it is dear. So please stay near.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

Say my name. I just want to hear you,
say my name. So I know it's true.
You're changing me. You're changing me.
You showed me how to live.
So just say. So just say,

That you'll stay awake for me.
I don't wanna miss anything.
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything

YOU

Nothing makes me smile but you.

Everytime I look your way, I lose my breath.

What could have amounted up till now, was you.

She said "Hey, why are you so quiet" and it all began.

You're like my thunder, pounding every heartbeat.

You're like a lover, making every moment special.

You're like no other, nothing I have ever experienced before.

You are special, to me and to everyone else.

If I lost you now, I would gladly follow you wherever you'll end up in.

So you see, this world doesn't matter to me.

I'd give up all I have just to breathe the same air as you.

I dedicate these words to YOU, my one and only.



P/S : I love you

To Juliet.

Dear Juliet,

I ____ You...

Yours sincerely,
Romeo.

A day of embrace and hypernotic screams

Another Friday as usual. I woke up so damn late and I missed English class. :\
Damn it, they watched Russel Peters and I missed it. Gahh. Whateverrrrrrrrr.
So I had no classes for the day anymore, I went to Gurney with Amber, Sue followed along. We watched Fast and Furious 4. It was okay, not that nice as the 3rd. Then we went to Sue's friend's house for awhile to watch Saw 5, again... Her room is so HUGE! :O
Soon after that, I drove Amber back to the hostel. :)

Later that night, me and Amber wanted to go and find the tar beach. Lena came along. So she knew where was it. I FOLLOWED HER DIRECTIONS AND WE ENDED UP PASSING THROUGH KAMPUNGS, RURAL AREAS, MISLEADING SIGNBOARDS AND EVENTUALLY GOT LOST IN THE UNCIVILIZED AREA OF PENANG. Blahhh, LOL. So we continued our journey through a very, very, VERY dark mountain. The road was so curvy, my hands and legs were working overtime. :( We started our journey at around 8.45pm, and we reached Batu Feringhi at about 10pm. My petrol tank habis laaaaaa. :O
We went to the beach near Crown Jewel hotel. Took a nice stroll with Amber and Lena. I wish I could just sit there with her and talk, under the quiet atmosphere where nobody is around, hearing the waves crashing towards the shores, the skies empty yet beautiful. :)

At around 11, we drove back to Crystal Point and ate our supper at Island Red Cafe. I ordered some Kuey Teow soup but it got ruined at the end by two mad hyper wierdos. And I paid for that, haha. Then LENA's ahem, came along to join us. Hehe. ;)
It was already 12midnight and Amber was so tired. So I drove them both back to the hostel.
Gahhh, an end to a fun-filled night. :\

I'm goina miss you.