My Special Five

These names will always be in my heart,
For life.

1. Amber

My dearest Amber Lim Rui Lynn. You have been a very very great friend indeed. You have showed me so many things from other perspectives anddddddd!! You found the CUTE and FUNNY side of me! And you changed my entire lifestyle upside down this year! Not to a bad one, but to a good one! I'm no more emotional like before, you helped me get out of bad habits and thoughts. And if it weren't for you to say HI that day in bio class, I would've been the same old boring guy who roams around college with a very VERY limited circle of friends. That is why YOU Amber Lim Rui Lynn, are my special friend! And I love you so very very very much! Mwaaaahhh! :D :D You know what you need on these hard times?? A HUG! And I know you'll make it out eventually and pass this whole goddamned HSC finals with flying colours! :) I have faith in you that you can do it, but you have to believe in yourself. Don't wade down in self pity and don't be remorseful of the past. You have what you have now and make use of that. Less interuptions, more determination. I am here for you every step of the way! So, just live you life full of happyness! :D Remember, my life would suck without you! So don't you leave me behind! T_T Haha.

2. Trixia

My beloved Trixia Gianco Tang. I can still remember you when I was Form1. The day you went all the way to my house to do homework. And it was your first day in Uplands! :D Until then our relationship has been growing ever since. You know, they say without Trixia, there would be no Bernard. Well, as a matter of fact, that IS true. And I want you to know how much you really mean to me. All the things we did!!! OMG The memories! Overnighting, movies, beaches, escaping out, breakfast, lunch, dinner, supper, late calls, huggies and kissies, and MORE THINGS THAT WE HAVE SHARED! Those were the times! And I have never treated anyone as unique as you! You Trixia, are my one and only best best BEST friend and nothing or no one can do anything to top that position! You complete my life! And God knows what I'll be come if you had never bugged me about those homework! Now you're in Scotland! HOW THE HECK CAN I REACH YOU FROM HERE?! COME BACK! I MISS YOU SO FKING MUCH! AND I LOVE YOU!!! Shit! DoubleGooshiness! HAHA. :D

3. Jacqueline

My heartly Jacqueline Ann-Marie Foo. Haha. Never thought that until now, I'd ever be talking to you. Thanks to AMBER of course! And if it weren't for you, I don't think I would have the guts or the brains about all this ups and downs of this relationship thingys. It's just so great to have good friends to help us along, and you are one of them! :) Without you, god knows what I'll be doing or thinking. I'll probably be emo and emo and emo every single stupid day in boring boring Inti! I LOVE your dimpley smiley face! It's the world's sweetest smile I have ever seen in my entire life! And I like to advice you! It's... FUN! :D Haha. Mwahhhh! Good luck in HSC and I'll see ya soon! :D

4. Jia Yi

My companionable Leong Jia Yi. JIAYI!!! DUMB DUMB! Omg. I have to slap you and beat you and punch you and kick you and push you and elbow you and shove you and doink you and slash you and glare down at you if you DON'T LISTEN TO MY ADVICE!!! HAHAHA! Oh, you know what I'm talking about! :D And you know, if it weren't for you, and not to mention Joe Vynne, I would be a lonely soul walking around in college without any peers. My circle of friends started from you both and I am proud to call you one of my closest friends! I LOVE bullying you and I LIKE calling you late at night! It's FUN! :D :D Hahahahaha! You seem to have a very decent and educational life. I like that. I'm JEALOUS! :O :O Oh well. :P Haha. Till the next time I see you in college! MWAHH! LOVE YA!

5. Sue Lyn

My extraordinary Ashley Tan Sue Lyn. You are so SO SOOOOO lovable, gullible, huggable, emotional, religious, strong, sexiest miniature sized girl I have ever met! :P :P Hahaha. And I wouldn't have had so much fun if it wasn't for Baski's tuition right? LOL. And I know you need more courage and determination to help you get throught this life. And about you and Aaron, you both are the sweetest couple I have ever ever seen! I wanna see both of you smile and laugh together and share everything happy! That makes ME feel happy, even though I don't have a partner. :( But still, I love you both! You two give me hope and inspiration to carry on living and being a good soul. :] :] THANK YOU!!! LOVE YAH!

You guys are the BEST! :D :D
I love you all so much!
And I'll always be there for you all! :)

Feels like Forever

"I know it feels like forever, but I guess that's just the price I gotta pay"

I feel utterly wierd and all. And I'm sick of it.

I wonder why.

Maybe it was meant to be? I don't really know.

Part of me is holding on,
to something so far and impossible,
when I should know by now,
who she picked to be with forever.

But I was stubborn.

I didn't really take it all in,
and accept the stupid stupid fact.

I guess things turn out bad in the end for some people.

But I still keep the hope and chances left in it.

Cause I don't give up.

No I don't give up.

"Another day without you with me, is like a blade that cuts right through me"

Still, I can't do anything else but wait.

And hope for the chance to be taken into place.

She's the only thing I know like the back of my head.

"When you call my heart stops beating. When you're gone it won't stop bleeding"

I wish she's knew,
how important she was to me,
and what she really means to me all this while.

Sigh. Things are better left said then done.

Smile Bernard Goh. Smile. :]