Dedicated song, to you

So the story goes on down
The less traveled road
It's a variation on
The one I was told
And although it's not the same
It's awful close, yeah

In an ordinary fairy tale land
There's a promise of a perfect happy end
And I imagine having just short of that
Is better than nothing

So you'll be mine
Forever and almost always
And I'll be fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

In the corner of my mind I know too well
Oh, that surely even I deserve the best
But instead of leaving
I just put the issue to bed
And outta my head

Oh, and just when I believe
You've changed for good
Well, you go and prove me wrong
Just like I knew you would
When I run out of second chances
You give me that look
And you're off the hook

Because you're mine
Forever and almost always
When I'm fine
Just love me when you can
And I'll wait patiently
I'll wake up everyday
Just hoping that you'll still care

What am I still doing here

It's all becoming so clear

You'll be mine
Forever and almost always
It ain't right
To just love me when you can
I won't wait patiently
Or wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

Forever and almost always
No, it ain't right
To just love me when you can, baby
Ain't gonna wait patiently
I won't wake up everyday
Just hoping that you still care

Kate Voegelle - Forever and Almost Always

For you, Jacqueline

Dear Jacqueline,

I know it's kinda hard to forget what happened.
And it's really a kick in the ass when you think about it.
You regret so many things, and you wasted time.
So much time, that you could've done other important things.
But if you had not do it, then you wouldn't have discovered,
so many hidden miracles of life rather than sticking to one.
Accept it as it already is, because you never know what might happen.
Look on the brighter side, at least you're not clinging on to false hope anymore. We all love you Jacqueline and we want you to smile! :)
I can't find a perfect song for you with the right meanings but I think this will be a nice one, I think...

Taylor Swift - Breathe

The word "Love"

Do people really know what they want in life?
Sometimes it's better off knowing it before you do anything.
For instance, finding true love.
Love is. Well. Divine.
Before you can start loving others,
You must first love yourself.
How can you dedicate yourself to others,
When you neglect even yourself?
In this situations, you must consider everything.
Especially how others feel.
Take into consideration their own flesh and blood
On how they come about your decisions.
Learn.
Understand and learn.
From your mistakes and your doings.
And make sure you do better.
Don't just give up.
If you do.
Then everything would've been for nothing at all.
Can you define the meaning,
of the word,
"Love"?

I don't care who's reading this, but I hope you do

Dear Amber,

Sometimes you may never know who you end up with.
Sometimes it's best to leave that thought behind.
Because now is now and that's a different story.
I'm here, in your life. Nothing else matters.
As I have said, you need time.
But baby, how much time do you need?
You see, you're always mixing things up.
And you know, it's alright to be commited now.
But at what level it may be, it depends.
Real loyalty, honesty and faith in each other is all we need.
Nothing serious yet, baby. Nothing yet.
Look. Love is something divine.
It's a feeling that comes from your heart.
And it doesn't take much of a push to have that.
From the moment I met you until now, I have no doubts.
That you of all people, would ever do such a thing.
I know you won't hurt me, and I know I won't get mad at you.
Because it's not going to happen.
We are one and we can work things out.
Tell me all of your dreams, your hopes, your fears.
Instill them in me.
Make me feel like how you do.
Don't hide your feelings away.
Love like how you did before.
Love full heartedly, because there's nothing wrong to it.
Remove those doubts and erase those thoughts.
Cause what's now is now.
Always remember that I am always beside you.
Near or far.
Alive or dead.
For now, concentrate on only us and what we can do.
What we will do as we both go through this nightmare.
Studies is essential and I know we both will make it through.
Just one question.
Were you telling the truth all this while?
The words you gave me, those heart throbbing words.
Those words that make me tremble and lighten me up like a flash.
Were you?
Well, whatever the answer may be, that is not important.
Let's start here.
The beginning of something new.
I just want to see you smile.
I hope you know this.


iloveyou.

To the people I love most... and especially to you

I am sorry.

For acting so emotional
Till I nearly ended my life
I didn't know what I was thinking
I wasn't myself that time
And I was stupid and foolish
Enough to make hearts bleed
So I just wanna say I am sorry
For all the thing I said to hurt you
As I'm still alive right here right now
I want you to know
That I love you dearly.

Bella's Lullaby

I wanna play this song on the piano for someone.

I can play it everyday, every hour, every minute, every second for her.

But..

I feel hurt.

I just wanna

Cry.....

In this moment of time

Gahhhhh!!! Alot of shit has been happening to me lately! Alot!
I get emo really fast and long that day. That stupid stupid day! Thinking of things that I shouldn't think of. I feel rather stupid.
But still, I got through it. If it wasn't for her, I'd still be stuck in my sorrows and bitterness.
Thank you for being there for me when I needed you.
I hope you know I'll be there for you all the time too.
Oh, I'm changing from HSC to AUP! I can't stand the pressure!
As I said. This year ain't my educational year. I used to be uber smart. Now I'm a doofus.
Because of HER! lol. Nahhh, kidding. :]

Anyway, this is it for now. I'll get updated on stuffs.
I'll see y'all soon!

I love you honey bun.

Cold nights and quiet mornings

Well, this post is kinda wierd. I don't know.
I just gotta let everything out here, not to people, but to myself.
But of course people will read this, so I'm prepared.
There's this girl I met
Not a few months ago
She's so sweet, happy, smilling away eveything
We got closer and closer at some points
And I would have liked to pop the question
But no
Not yet
I want that moment to be perfect and flawless, beautiful and unforgettable
But there's one problem
She's hard to get through and hard to understand
That makes it all the more challenging
She's different, obviously
But all this while
She's haunted by her past, her present and her bitter, bitter memories
Non-erasable memories
I have been hearing, listening in detail, accepting the facts, put those words in me,
about her past and what she tells of herself
She always talks about her ex's and numerous times spent with them
The poems she made for them
The things she did for them
The words and feelings she felt for them
Made me feel somewhat useless and worthless to the point of nothing
I feel hopeless as I take in everything she says about them
I feel stupid as how I wish I could give her what she wanted in all her ex's
She wanted that loving feeling again, I failed
She wanted that secure feeling again, I failed
She wanted to be loved unconditionally, I failed
She wanted someone to rely on, someone to trust
I failed.
One night, she got so emotional and she cried on the phone
I vouched to stay on through the night with her, but she got tired and slept
That night I felt the weakest and the most idiotic feeling ever
I even cried for godsake
I cried, funny eh?
Oh, how I so wish that she would just leave the past in the past and find the future
How I wish I can give her everything she sees in her 1st love
Sometimes, she doesn't know it
Sometimes, I don't show it
Sometimes, people don't bother
But deep down
Inside me
It really
really
hurts...

So many times I wanted to call her and just say I love you.
So many times
Countless moments where I waited to hear those words spatter from her
But it never came
On occasions it did, but not normally
It was
pain...
Sometimes, I wish you knew
How I felt for the very first time
Understand me for the very first time
I'm not just any other guy you met and had a relationship with
I'm Bernard Goh
And you just know the outside of me
Not who I really am on the inside.
I miss you
And I can't wait to see you on Monday.
Sigh
If you'd only knew...